I just had a terrible dream. I dreamt that we lost Cole. In my dream none of us were accepting the truth. I took Kyle to school one day, and the next day I went to take him again and he said he couldn’t stand to go because everyone “kept trying to convince him and asking about Cole.” I can’t even fathom this horror, but as painful as it is for me, I can’t even start to think about what it would do to Kyle. That is the most heartbreaking thought for me. Please God don’t ever let this horrible nightmare come true!
When I woke up, the song playing in my head was By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North. The lyrics are below. Thank you God.
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don’t turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching
As if I’m not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
‘Cause I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands at my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
And I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
‘Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, yeah I’ll love you
I’ll never let you go, no, no
And I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Here at my side, my hands are holding you
Ohhh..